I'm not sure if you guys know who Chelsea Handler is, but a friend of mine gave me her book to read. She is fricken hilarious and beat me to my idea. I've always wanted to write a book about my experiences with guys over the years and she did it. For those that don't know who she is, google her. She is a 30 somethen year old comedian and her show is on E! at 11:30 PM. I saw her when i went to Hollywood interviewing some chicks for her show. I like her because she is like a guy, tells stories as it is, makes fun of herself, screws whoever she wants and doesn't get attached ( at least that's what she says). 

She has this book called "My horizontal life". I just finished it, it's a quick read. She tells stories of one night stands, which seems to be all she does. Nights with midgets, small penises, gay guys, ecstasy, her family conflicts and a shit load of other funny stuff. She cracks me up. I think maybe because I can so relate to just about everything that comes out of her mouth. Plus every once in a while I love a good brainless book that will fill my time, allowing me to zone out and giggle.

Anyway if i had a girl crush...it would be on her (ok so I have a girl crush). I love it that she thinks the same way I do. Maybe I'll still write my book, since I have so much free time. But it won't be as funny cuz people have no idea who I am. Course I'd do it more for me than anyone else anyway. Then ya never know, it could go over big! Then I'd be famous for talking shit like she is...haha =) I think the guys in my life may hate me forever though, but who cares I'd be rich!! hahah. =)

Over the past few days i must admit staring at a blank apartment was getting scary..I'm not super creative when it comes to decorating. i felt overwhelmed and wasn't even sure where to start since i needed everything. I picked up my mom and aunt and we headed out to McCarthy Ranch. Thank god we did...i got SO lucky. There is this furniture place called "C & K United Furtniture". They were having an amazing sale. I'm not sure if they always do or not...but man i got exactly what i wanted. I wanted to go with a modern look, dark cherry wood, browns and tans with a slight asian vibe - sort of the feel you get from Hotel Valencia. I got a really nice tan suede couch - it's sectional with a chaise, a beautiful dining room table- cherry wood with tan suede on the chairs (matches the couch perfectly) it has a cool design on the tops of the chairs sort of just cut out squares, Then I got this SWEET ass coffee table..I'm not sure if my description will do it justice but i will try...its cherry wood and round with a glass top, the wood seperates the table into 4 sections sort of like a pie and under the table are these little stools that blend in...but you can pull them out and sit around the coffee table! Its the most awesome thing ever!! And the cushions on the little stools match the couch and the dining room table chairs!!! 

I also got a bedroom set. Its dark brown, almost black and looks very modern. Im not even sure how to explain it. It's a low to the ground type of bed and the top headboard is cut to sort of look like a half moon, the dresser is tall with 5 drawers and then i got 2 night stands. Picking a mattress was hard for me, but I think i got the perfect one and because of the bed's style i didnt even need a box spring. Everything i mentioned above...i got it out the door for $3k, he didnt charge me for delievery and he is gonna set it up for me!!!! I also hit up Walmart and Bed bath and beyond. All i have left to get is a TV, which I am waiting for the thanksgiving sales to begin and then it's on!!! I'm thinking 42-50" flat screen , but not sure which brand so if anyone has a recomendation please let me know.   It's all coming together nicely and i think i may be in this weekend like i had hoped for. Kitchen is all set..bathroom's set, bedroom is set, dining room and family room...set! Now it's time to move my clothes over (which is quit a task) and BOOM I'm home!!!!  What's gonna suck is going through my room....being in the same place since 2nd grade= clutter city. That in itself will take days. 

One thing I'm not thrilled about is parking. During the day it appears that there is plenty of guest parking, however at night this isnt the case at all. And my "garport" is fricken tight. I had to leave my neighbor a note asking them to scootch over. I coudnt even get my car in =(  Hopefully if they move over it will be ok and i will fit. The 4runner isn't super wide but man...its tough because the parking spots are tiny. Crossing my fingers the guy moves over and all is well so I can carry on with my honeymoon stage in my apartment ;-)

Hey all...if anyone sees any awesome sales anywhere for furniture or anything home related...please let me know =) i need EVERYTHING....bedroom set, couch..i think i listed it off in the last email ;-)

I'd be MUCH obliged! =)

That poor girl..good god please tell me you saw the VMA's?? She opened with her new song and let me tell you it's horrible. I think it's sad to say..she wanted to be a mom so bad, thats about all she should be now. 


http://justjared.buzznet.com/2007/09/09/britney-spears-vmas-2007-performance/

Just got back from Hawaii =( We were there for a week and it went by way too fast. Honalulu is more like San Diego than I would have imagined Hawaii to be. Not that I was disapointed, we did do a lot and have tons of fun. But because there is SO much to do there, I really didn't get to lay out like I wanted to.  We were constantly on the go, from swimming with the dolphins, shopping, checking out the Arizona memorial, Paradise Cove Luau, layin out on the beach and EATING lots. I loved checking out all the cool places to eat and grab drinks. They had some pretty cool places to go to at night to grab drinks and party and they were open until 4 AM, of course my lazy ass couldnt hang like i used to so um yea 2 AM was it for me...haha the ol'd creep to 30 is showing. And man were there tons of hookers. The later it got the more they came out, and they weren't all tranny lookin like they are here, not too bad lookin. But still NASTY haha. 

This trip did set us back a pretty pennt and to be honest I have no idea what we even spent it on. Each excursion was $100 or more, but we didn't do that much. Even though we were constantly busy we didn't get to do everything we wanted. Here are some pics below.....Sad it's over. =(

I swear the older I get the more emotional I get. I used to never cry, never be affected by sad movies or sad things I would see on the street. I would acknowledge it to be sad and unfortunate but I would never really "feel it" ya know? Lately things are really sinking into my soul. Not sure if its be getting older or me just getting more in touch with myself. My mom came home today and told me a story that made my eyes well up. Not only did it make me have more respect for her but it really touched me. 

My mom works for a bank and today she had a customer come in- she was an 80 year old woman trying to take out a loan for $200.  The loan was to buy her groceries, she had zero food to eat and didn't get a social security check until Sept 3. Rather than go into banker zone and process the loan, my mom asked her boss if she could take a break and took the lady to the grocery store. This woman had been a customer for 20 years so the bank contributed $30 towards the shopping trip. As they shopped, the lady watched the price tag of all the items and kept trying to only pick up limited cheaper items. Unsure of what to get because she was shopping with another person's money she was being hesitant so my mom did her best to pick out items that would last her and things she would need. The sad thing was, the lady didnt even have toilet paper or salt. Everyone has salt...and she didn't even have that. It breaks my heart that there are older people  out in the world with no family set up on limited funds which can barely pay their bills and buy groceries. She made it a point to tell my mom , " at least I paid my bills". =(  Although she has groceries it wont last her more than a week. So my mom has told everyone at work to bring some canned foods in and other things that will last. Lucky for this woman, my mom is a good humanitarian. Apprently they are going to get a hold of a social worker and see what can be done for assistance moving forward because I would imagine this is an ongoing struggle for this woman. 

In the mist of all this, I have decided to go back to school and get my masters. This way I can go into Social work, my original plan. Although it is a sad job, it is also a very fullfilling job because you are able to help people like this. Its going to be a long year because i am going to have to take tons of classes...but it will be worth it so it looks like im going to have to stick with my current job for another year and just suck it up  knowing it will better my future. back to school....ughhhh

Since 25, I seem to have developed this annual panic attack around my birthday. This year...I dont feel it. Not sure if the year passed by so quick that I haven't had time to feel it, or simply that I think I'm gonna like 29.  K ,now that Im thinking about it, I'm going to bet it's the first one, time is going by just too fast. Not trying to make those 30 and over feel bad but I'M ALMOST 30..that should scare me more. Norrmally I would be having the pitty party...you know "im getting old and I'm not married, I dont have kids, I don't have a house here...blah blah blah". I don't care right now for some reason. Maybe it's one of those things where you panic and stress so much that eventually you become dead inside and throw up your hands and say fuck it. I have felt the new way i think as quit calming....my new thing is - "I'm exactly where life has intended me to be".  Not to say i dont have the occasional panic attack, but its been getting less frequent.  For still being pretty out of control of things..i feel sort of in control if that makes any sense. 

Maybe it's the gym? I've been working out pretty hard core for 5 weeks now. I feel like Im really improving physically. Not talking like becoming a super model over night, but physically i just feel healthier and not so bloated. I'm still a little ways away from losin the  "extra"  pounds and firming up more,but overall mentally i feel better.  If I keep this up who knows..maybe I will be a damn hot 30 year old next year =) K ....here comes a litle panic..one year at a time, for now I will settle for 29. 

Maybe the fact that I feel calm means it will be my year to get what i want.  We'll see...=)